i’m flailing
i know this
this is me dropping the ball
this is me screaming
this is me holding out my hand
for the promise you made
to be there
empty
i twisted my world about
to hold you
i rocked you in my arms
head on my breast
and soothed your madness
fed you
warmed you
hoped
i gave you shiny pieces of myself
and for a while you gave them back
reshaped and glowing
but now they fall through my fingers
and you pat me me on the head
hoping
i will fix myself
or fade away
i chose this
i held you
i let the pieces fall
uncaught
Oct. 10th, 2010